Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Ducks in a row...

So I feel like the more ducks in a row that we get the more ducks there are that need to be gathered. I almost am starting to believe that trying to schedule two people's lives to coincide and changes to happen together is like herding cats in the house of a hoarder. The second you think you get all of the cats into a line, you open up another door and there are more cats. As more ducks come into a row the more I love this man... but goodness this is all a lot of work :)

Monday, April 18, 2011

This Week

I found out today that I passed the English AEPA. Its been the dirty little secret I have been carrying around with me, telling no one, sitting and waiting. Why might you ask? I have nothing against being an English teacher, and I like English teachers, most of my time is spent with them actually, but what I really need is a job.

We found out a few weeks ago that he has gotten a promotion, and now I am scrambling for a job. Can I teach English? With books and guidance, sure! But we'll see how this goes... and how my life will play out. The problem with teaching is they want you to make a decision on what you will be doing in an year from now, where did the spontaneousness go from the world? :)

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

The Day to Day

Tackling things one day at a time seems to be its own vice one day at a time. I woke this morning worried, almost paralyzed with fear, what if, what if, what if, what if? Its exhausting both emotionally and physically to be this worked up all the time. I can’t stand it. I can’t stand waiting, counting the hours the days the weeks and I feel like time has become a burden and not a pleasure. I used to enjoy my time, every moment of every day it was easy for me. I was happy; truly, blissfully, Hollywood style happy. So of course, as the fates would see it, I was due for a reality check, however, if anyone is truly listening I would take minor checkpoints versus complete stopped traffic. This sucks! I miss the truly blissful happiness that I felt, and the laundry list of things that needs to be accomplished is overwhelming.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

25 Things to do before You're 30

So I stole this from a blog I recently started reading, thanks to Tasha :) I turned 26 last month so I'm late to the game but I'm willing to change this list from "25 things to do before you're 25" to "25 things to do before you're 30". I have officially don't fifteen of this, meaning ten more to go in four years. 

1. Have a really good one night stand with a gorgeous guy. Forget about your personalities matching up and forget about Facebooking him the next day. Appreciate the smoking hot naked body…and take some Plan B in the morning just in case, because if you did it right, you have no way of ever contacting him.
2. Do an illegal drug. Otherwise your kids will think you’re totally lame 30 years down the road when they’re all like “Mom, I bet you were so wild and fun back in the ’10s” and you’ll have to respond “well, one time I drank beer before liquor.”
3. Live in another country (even if it’s just for a short period of time). You’ll get an entirely new perspective on our country, on the world, and on how far reaching American scandals go in other countries. Nothing like your Spanish host mom bringing up Monica Lewinsky years after the fact.
4. Travel on the cheap. Pick a destination and do it up, backpacking-style. Stay in hostels, eat unidentifiable food, and make sure to have anti-diarrhea medicine on hand. Once you’re over 25, your body will no longer be able to stomach staying in those places, eating that food, and experiencing food poisoning in front of a ton of foreign strangers.
5. Confront a fear. Doesn’t matter if it’s a fear of heights or a fear of spiders, figure out a way to face it head on just once.
6. Be brave and be bold and have sex with the lights on. He’ll find you even sexier, which will only boost your own self-confidence.
7. Splurge on an awesome pair of jeans that fit you really well. Bonus points if they also fit your completely different-sized best friends just as well and make magical things happen.
8. Apologize to someone you were mean to in middle school. Except for that one girl who didn’t need braces, everyone was feeling insecure and left out in those days. A quick Facebook message apology will brighten her day.
9. Make a real guy friend who is really just a friend. As in you don’t want to ever see him naked and he doesn’t ever want to see you naked. No points if you’re related.
10. Get a job working with food or working with clothes.You’ll never treat your waiters, your bartenders, your salespeople the same way ever again. You’ll suddenly understand why they ask you to get off the phone when you’re ordering and why they request that you take your clothes out of the dressing room.
11. Figure out what kind of wine you actually like. There is life beyond Franzia and you’ll feel so mature and adult when you can tell a date that you prefer a dry Chardonnay over a sweeter Pinot. The best way to figure this out on the cheap? Go on a wine tour. You’ll sort things out real quick. Oh, and learn how to work a corkscrew. No wine is enhanced by chunks of cork floating around.
12. Take a roadtrip with your friends. The destination doesn’t matter. As Miley Cyrus once “sang,” it’s all about the climb. Nothing brings friends closer than endless games of “Count the Cracker Barrels,” hours upon hours of deep conversations (out come the family secrets!), and Disney sing-a-longs.
13. Try an exotic food you can’t pronounce.
14. Go to a college football game and go all out. Paint your face, lose your voice from cheering, and tailgate like a rockstar.
15. See a Broadway show. Even the most cynical people leave a show happy.
16. Go 24 hours media-free. That means turn off your cell phone and shut down your computer. With the exception of getting tagged in heinous photos that you can’t de-tag right away, you won’t miss anything.
17. Skinny dip.
18. Give back to the community. Whether it’s building houses for Habitat for Humanity, participating in a campus Relay for Life, or standing for days on end for a Dance Marathon, you’ll have an awesome time and feel really, really good about yourself. After a 12 hour nap, of course.
19. Learn to do your own taxes and how to manage your own money. It will make that transition into real life so. much. easier.
20. Take your parents out to a nice dinner. Because they deserve it.
21. Start a blog about your life and update it regularly.Sure it seems self-centered now, but you’ll be grateful ten years from now when you can reflect on your life when you were really living it up.
22. Go to a Pride Parade. There is nothing on earth as fun, happy and memorable than a parade dedicated to gay pride.
23. Go to Vegas and let go. Party hard, then party harder. Then hit up an all-you-can-eat buffet to sober up…so you can party again.
24. Learn to drive a manual car. They’re cheaper and, really, it’s just a cool party trick. Plus, from what we hear, it’s a major turn-on for guys.
25. Donate blood. If you think donating is scary, imagine being the person who needs it during a blood shortage. And if that’s not enough, there are cookie